Ten days gone

Ok, MLA, it has been ten days since my last post. Sorry. I'm a little busy with summer classes and two jobs.

Some realizations I have made over the past ten days:

1. I want to be extraordinary. There is nothing extraordinary about working at CPK, having a graphic design internship, and being a senior in college. I need to do something more with myself. Write a book? Write a movie? I need to make my mark, not just meet the expectations.
2. Maybe being certain about something isn't all that bad. Maybe being certain about something in your future, rather than just traipsing through life waiting for the next thing to happen, isn't as spirit crushing as I have always thought it is.
3. I am ready to move on. Chicago has been great for the past three years, and I'll enjoy one more year here, but it is time for me to move. Considering: Dallas, Napa, rural North Carolina, and somewhere in Florida.
4. According to Kate Potts' analysis of my most recent dream, I need to get my life in order and be a real, responsible adult, I am easily haunted by unanswered questions, and I am searching for religion/something that can give my life order and reason, and a sense of protection and security, but at the same time allows me to be myself and express my opinions.

loving chicago,
AMK

Dialogue between 2/3
AMK: we're complerely aware that it is illogical to continue to have feelings for them and to hope, but we cant help ourselves.
KMFP: i dont think they actually get over it-- i think they think about us as often as we think of them, but they are just socially inclined to pretend like they dont
AMK: bastards.
KMFP: they are.
i really hate men
i do
AMK: me to.
KMFP: i never want another one
AMK: haha... i do. shit.